What Have You Learned to Believe About Yourself?

That’s just who I am.

You’ve probably said it about yourself without giving it much thought.

Maybe you’re the responsible one. The planner. The person everybody can count on. Maybe you work best under pressure. You don’t like asking for help. You need to know where you’re going before you make a move. You’re not a risk taker. You’ve never been good at certain things, and at this point in your life, you’ve pretty much accepted that you never will be.

You’ve lived with some of those descriptions for so long that they don’t feel like opinions anymore.

They feel like facts.

But what if some of them aren’t?

What if some of the things you’ve come to believe are simply part of who you are are actually habits, stories, responses and ways of thinking you learned along the way?

I’ve been asking myself that question lately.

Figuring out what you really want in life is one thing. Recognizing what you may need to unlearn to build it is something else.

There are things about myself I’ve believed for so long that I stopped questioning whether they were actually true.

I am a planner.

I need to know the outcome before I act.

I work well under pressure.

I feel productive when I’m busy.

I figure out how to get things done.

For most of my life, I probably would have described those things as parts of my personality.

Some of them still may be.

But lately I’ve been wondering how much of what I call me is actually me, and how much is simply what I’ve learned to do.

There’s a difference.

Over the past year, I’ve changed some pretty significant things about my life. I have more control over my time. I’m building work differently. I’m paying closer attention to what matters to me and trying to be more intentional about what gets my energy.

But apparently changing your circumstances doesn’t automatically send a memo to all the habits you developed while living in them.

I can have complete control over my day and still feel like I should be doing something productive with every available hour.

I can tell myself that I want more room in my life and then immediately start filling the room I created.

I can decide that work no longer gets to occupy the center of everything and still catch myself measuring whether I had a good day by how much work I got done.

Nobody is making me do that.

That’s the interesting part.

Some of the rules I’m still following don’t have anyone enforcing them anymore.

Except me.

And that has me thinking about something I’ve started calling unlearning me.

Not because I want to erase who I am.

Quite the opposite.

I’m beginning to wonder whether building the life I want now requires me to become more curious about some of the things I’ve spent years believing are simply who I am.

When What You Learned Starts Feeling Like Who You Are

When you think about everything you’ve learned over the course of your life, you probably think about what you’ve gained.

Knowledge.
Skills.
Experience.
Wisdom.

You’ve learned how to do your job, manage money, raise children, navigate relationships. How to make decisions. How to lead.

You live long enough and, hopefully, you get better at some of it.

But those aren’t the only things you’ve learned.

You’ve also learned what gets rewarded. What gets approval. What makes people depend on you. What you’re supposed to do when things get difficult.

You’ve learned what success is supposed to look like. Whether it’s acceptable to rest. Whether asking for help feels like strength or weakness. Whether disappointing someone means you’ve done something wrong.

And somewhere along the way, you’ve learned things about yourself.

I’m not good at that.
I’ve always been this way.
I’m the responsible one.
I don’t take risks.
I need pressure to perform.
I’m too old to start that now.

Maybe somebody told you those things. Sometimes nobody had to.

Maybe something happened and you interpreted it a certain way. Then something else happened that seemed to confirm it. Eventually, you stopped treating the conclusion as a conclusion.

It became a fact.

Or at least it felt like one.

I think that’s how some of our self-imposed limitations get built.

Not necessarily through one dramatic moment when we decide what we’re capable of, but through years of repetition.

A thought becomes a story.
A story becomes a belief.
A belief starts influencing our choices.

And after enough time, we stop seeing the choices.

We just say:

That’s who I am.

I’ve said some version of that about myself plenty of times.

I’m a planner.

There’s nothing wrong with planning. It’s served me well professionally and personally.

But I’ve also had to confront the fact that sometimes what I call planning is my need to know the outcome before I’m willing to act.

That’s not planning.

That’s trying to control things I have no control over.

And that’s fear with a calendar.

The distinction matters.

Because if I believe I’m a planner, then waiting until I can see the outcome feels like part of my identity.

If I recognize that needing certainty is something I’ve learned to rely on, I can question whether I still need it.

Something you learned can eventually start feeling like something you are.

And if that's true, then maybe some of what we think we know about ourselves deserves another look. Part of learning to trust yourself again may be questioning whether the voice you've been listening to is actually yours.

What Got You Here May Not Be What You Need Now

One thing I don't want to do is turn this into an indictment of the person any of us used to be.

That's not particularly useful.

And frankly, I like that guy. I hope you can say the same about the person you were.

He got me here. And whoever you had to become along the way got you here too.

A lot of the habits and ways of thinking we may be questioning now served a purpose.

Being willing to work hard may have helped us build careers. Being dependable created opportunities. Learning to perform under pressure was useful, for me especially in television, where pressure isn't an occasional inconvenience. It's practically part of the job description.

Planning helped us make good decisions.

Even some of the things we might handle differently today made sense in the circumstances where we learned them.

That's why changing can be complicated.

We're not usually walking around carrying a convenient collection of obviously terrible habits.

Some of the things that may be limiting us now are the same things that helped us succeed before.

Those things aren't necessarily weaknesses. They may have been adaptations. They worked. Until maybe they didn't.

I think that's an important difference, especially as we mature.

If you're like me and post 40, you've had enough life experience to develop some pretty established ways of operating.

You know yourself well. You have a pretty good sense of how you respond under pressure, make decisions and deal with uncertainty. You know the role you tend to play in your family and what happens to you when work gets demanding or conflict shows up.

There's comfort in knowing yourself that well.

But there's also a danger.

We can confuse familiarity with permanence.

This is how I've always done it can quietly become this is how I have to do it.

It doesn't.

There are things I needed from myself twenty years ago that I don't necessarily need in the same way today.

There are things you may have needed from yourself too.

The question isn't whether they were wrong.

The better question may be:

Do they still belong?

That question feels very different to me than trying to identify everything that's “wrong” with myself and fix it.

I’m not interested in being a renovation project.

I'm more interested in paying attention.

When an old pattern shows up, does it still help me build the life I say I want? Or am I following it because it's familiar?

A pattern can have served you well and still have reached the end of its usefulness.

Recognizing that doesn't invalidate who you were. It gives you permission to decide who you need to be now.

Unlearning Isn’t Forgetting. It’s Choosing Differently.

I used to think that once I understood something about myself, I had pretty much handled it. I can see the problem. I understand why I do it. Case closed.

My behavior apparently did not receive that memo either.

Knowing something needs to change and actually changing the way you live are not the same thing.

I can believe that rest matters and still feel guilty when I'm not working. Wanting greater control over my time doesn't stop me from filling every available space with something that needs to be accomplished. I've decided I don't need everyone to understand my choices, yet I still find myself explaining them more than necessary.

Even when I know intellectually that something no longer serves me, I can still feel myself being pulled toward the familiar response.

That's because recognition isn't unlearning.

It's awareness.

Awareness matters, but it's only the beginning.

I'm learning that unlearning happens later.

It happens when the familiar situation shows up and you notice yourself reaching for the familiar response.

Then you create just enough space to ask:

Do I still want to do it this way?

Sometimes the answer will be yes.

That's important too.

The point isn't to become suspicious of every habit you've developed or turn every decision into an archaeological dig through your childhood.

Some things work because they're good.

Keep them.

But sometimes the answer is no.

And then you have a choice.

Knowing your time matters may mean protecting it differently. Believing you don’t need certainty can mean moving before you know exactly how everything ends. Maybe it means no longer automatically saying yes simply because you’ve spent years being the person who could always handle one more thing.

And when that familiar voice says, people like me don’t do that, maybe you finally stop long enough to ask who wrote that rule in the first place.

But questioning the rule doesn’t automatically change the way you’ve learned to live by it.

That's what I think we sometimes miss when we talk about changing our lives.

We imagine that once our thinking changes, our behavior should obediently fall in line.

We would be considerably easier to operate if that were true.

Instead, we practice our way into patterns, and sometimes we have to practice our way out of them.

That's where integration becomes important to me.

Integration is what happens when what you're learning about yourself begins to influence how you're actually living. Not perfectly or all at once, but increasingly.

It's closing the distance between this is what I say matters and this is how I'm choosing to live.

And that may require doing something differently enough times that the new choice eventually becomes as familiar as the old one.

You don't unlearn something simply because you've recognized it. You begin unlearning it when you start choosing differently.

That feels less dramatic than transformation usually sounds.

It won't make a particularly impressive montage. But it is how real change happens.

Final Thought: Unlearning Me

There’s a lot of language around personal growth that suggests we should be trying to become a new person.

New year. New you. Reinvent yourself. Become the next version of yourself.

I've used some of that language myself. And I understand the appeal. When you've decided something needs to change, becoming someone new can sound exciting.

I'm just not sure that's what I want anymore.

At this point in my life, I'm not particularly interested in becoming somebody else.

I've spent too much time becoming this person.

There are things about myself I value, experiences I wouldn't trade and skills I've spent decades developing. There are lessons I paid too much for to throw away now and mistakes that taught me things success never could.

I want to carry those things with me.

That's why I increasingly think about change as realignment rather than replacement.

Some things need to be leveraged. Some need to be integrated differently. And some may need to be unlearned.

The challenge is knowing which is which.

Because the independence that helped you through one chapter can become isolation in another. Ambition can help you achieve and eventually make it difficult to recognize when enough is enough. Responsibility can make you dependable while quietly convincing you that everything is yours to carry.

The quality itself may not be the problem.

The question is whether you're still using it intentionally or whether it has started using you.

I don't think we reach a certain age and suddenly have ourselves completely figured out.

I'm of a certain age and apparently there are still updates. Some of them install whether I approve them or not.

But there is something different about looking at yourself after you've lived enough life to have evidence.

You can look back and recognize the patterns that helped you through difficult seasons, helped you succeed, protected you or simply kept you going when stopping wasn't an option.

You can also recognize what some of those patterns cost.

And maybe, with enough distance, you can begin asking whether all of them still need a job.

That's where I find myself.

I'm not trying to erase who I've been or pretend that every habit I developed was some terrible mistake. I'm just becoming more willing to question things I once treated as settled.

Do I actually need to know how everything ends before I begin? Does every available hour need to become productive? Do I have to say yes simply because I'm capable of doing something? Does being needed have to mean being available?

Is this really who I am, or is it something I’ve practiced for a very long time?

I don't necessarily have an answer every time.

But maybe asking the question is part of the unlearning.

Because building forward isn't only about deciding what you want to add to your life. Sometimes it's about becoming curious about what you've been carrying simply because you've carried it for so long.

Some of it belongs. Some of it has earned its place.

And some of it may have done its job.

So maybe the question isn't, How do I become someone new?

Maybe it's:

What belongs to me, and what have I simply been carrying for so long that I assumed it did?

That question doesn't require me to reject the person I've been.

It requires me to understand him better.

Because I don't need to unlearn who I am.

But I may need to unlearn some of what I've come to believe about who I have to be.

What’s Really You?

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TL;DR

Some of the things you believe about yourself may not actually be who you are. They may be habits, stories and ways of operating that you learned over time. And some of them may have served you well.

But what got you here may not be what you need now.

Unlearning isn’t about rejecting the person you’ve been. It’s about recognizing what still belongs, questioning what doesn’t and choosing differently when an old pattern no longer fits the life you’re building.

You don’t need to unlearn who you are. You may need to unlearn some of what you’ve come to believe about who you have to be.